What my hubby thinks of the new me

Photo's were taken the day before our 5th wedding anniversary,

we attended another South African living in Germany's 30th birthday dinner.

I'm going to ask my hubby to be honest with me and tell me what he really thinks about the new me - the new me that's lost 20 kgs...

I've never been someone to ask anyone ( let alone hubby ) if I look okay, if the clothing I'm wearing to a function looks okay on me, is my hair okay, do I look fat in these pants etc...you get the picture?. I decide and hope to hear the words * You look nice * - if those words don't come then thats also okay...but I never go looking for those words. I suppose I'm too scared to hear what the other person really thinks as I'm so sensitive it would bother me terribly if something negative was said to me.

So up to this day I've never asked hubby what he thinks about the new slimmer me.

So last night in bed I approached the subject...

WHAT DO YOU REALLY THINK OF THE NEW ME?

He told me that he loves the new me...that he admires me so much for what I've achieved - he never ever thought I would get it right after watching me attempt this journey a few times in the 5 years we were married.

He also said he never ever thought I was fat...looking back at my pictures he can see I was carrying a little more, but only now, never then.

Sometimes he worries that I might take it too far and get a eating disorder, so he does say things like -* You are skin and bone * but only out of concern, not that he does think I am skin and bone. He says it feels very different to run his hands over my body and feel my bones, my hip bones stick out when I lie down, in the past they were covered in fat.

So what I got from our discussion, was that he loved the new me, and that he was very proud of me and will be there for me to help with my maintaining as he knows that this is my current concern....

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Sunday's Thoughts & Thanks

The photo above I took of my son and my little grandson during my last holiday

The bottom photo was taken earlier this year when I went home,

It was the first time I met my little grandson.

Are they both not cute!!!!!

I love my boys!!

Thanks so much to all of you who left me comments with my last blog entry, it's really good to know I have all your support with my journey of maintaining my weight. Those of you who know me personally know that this has always been an area I've struggled with. Once at my goal weight I'd think *That's It, dieting all done* and start not worrying about what I put in my mouth like I did while dieting ( dieting I've learnt is bad for one )...and before I knew it the weight is back...and sometimes even more that what I started with.

This time I've learnt that it's a *Lifestyle* not a diet...that with the combination of calories, in to calories out and training I can do this....

After all these years I've finally had a the light bulb moment and can now start winning this battle....yes, even at my age it's not to late!

Today I went with hubby to gym...he did his usual thing while I ran for 10kl on the treadmill...I ran 10kl in 1 hour and 6 mins...15 mins before the end I wanted to throw in the towel and walk, but over the last 9 months I've learnt that I'm a lot stronger than I ever imagined...with positive mind talk I can get through any challenge that faces me in life. Such an empowering feeling this gives me.

P. S I'm going to clean out my blog feed reader this week,I'm spending too much time reading blogs and commenting on bloggers who never visit me, I want to spend more quality blog time with those who do make the effort...I've been commenting on some bloggers blogs for 5/6 months now and never even get a *HI* from them...Do you have the same situation??

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